Sorry in advance since this post is going to be a bit of a ramble. It’s just that this is nerve wracking stuff and it’s hard to share so I’ll just get it done. God has given me a few warnings that I’ll be sharing with you here today.
Warning #1 starts out that my husband suddenly decides to read the Bible. Which part he was reading I don’t know, but he starts speaking to me about the talents/money and how there was a person who buried the talents in the ground and then gave them back to the Master and got scolded for not doing anything with the talents. So I’m guessing that was probably what he was reading since that’s what he was talking about, but I’m confused by this because it’s all so sudden. He just goes into this long explanation out of nowhere and then says this must be coming from God because I’m giving you a long explanation about something I know nothing about and it’s just flowing out of me and by the way this is about you I have to tell you that you’re the servant who buried the talents.
Warning #2 came a few days later when I was watching YouTube and a Benny Hinn video shows up and I watch it and he’s talking about how this is probably a message for someone and that a tree that doesn’t give fruit gets cut off. I’m like hmm I detect a pattern here, trying not to freak out too much as he starts talking about how God’s pattern is He usually gives a three year break and like a fourth year grace period. Any similarities to my life are purely non-coincidental. But here’s the kicker I can expect to get cut off at the end of the fourth year.
Instantly I’m surprised at everything (stab my heart why don’t you) but not shocked. And that’s never a place you want to be at, where God is sending you a sudden slurry of messages telling you hey you’re not doing anything get a move on and all you can say is you’re right, I’ve been stuck for the past three years I should probably do something with my life besides watch way too much YouTube. I got the messages at the beginning of Christmas, so God was setting me up to start the new year of 2024 right. Sweet but scary. Hence this Substack. It should come as no surprise that after all that I figured I should get my katush into motion and do something right off the bat while waiting to be hired.
Again I’m in awe of his consideration with me and even though He’s giving me clear warnings, He’s helping me to not get cut off. What exactly getting cut off entails I don’t even want to know, so I repented and after I repented God was so sweet to me. My husband out of nowhere, once again and I’m beginning to wonder if this is going to turn into a pattern, tells me that God loves me and that He is going to give me what I want. My husband tells me this out of the blue and so even though this is a troubling time for me I’m in awe and just so thankful to Him. Thank you Daddy.